we no any longer (';

salam . haha . i still remember this date . 12 APRIL 2012 . we brokeup ! haha . jyeaahh ! for a weeks he off his phone , not even reply my text ONCE , and tuptuptup minta break ! and i was like WATAPAK ? ! LIKE SERIOUSLY ? ! and i cried for one whole day , and after that am FREE like forever . i guess so ! haha ;D am tired with a MAN who never be so grateful with the women that really love him ! SO STUPID DAMN ASSHOLE btul lh . haha . GO DIE LH sma nama nyaa lelaki . cakap bukan bole pakai . mulut manis seja lebih ! and now , i dont trust them . and sy tidak terikat dgn mnamna lelaki dn tidak terima mnamna lelaki . sy cuma byk chat texting with lelaki . bukan mengetek oke . cuma kwankwan . sbb sy leby suka kwan dgn laky brbanding girls sbb drg open mind and sporting . slalu mndengar . perempuan nhe lain cket . kaki gossip thu mang x bole lari . haha

so , we both over our relationship . and stop ! no text , no call . but , sometimes i feel alone and really need him . and for godsake , imisshim <3 haha . gaahh ~ just for a moment lh .

he taught me how to be brave . jd yakin diri , jd lebih tabah , kuat . and ajar ak jd lebih EGO . sorry lh sang . kw yg ajar ak jd ego . dah lh chaw ! ;p

kesayangan ku menghilang )';

salam & good evening belog ku .

about three days already . he never called me . never text me . never care bout me . where was he ? i've been call and text him for a hundred times but it keeps on pending . why is he off his phone ? am so fucking miss him so much . where are you syg ? dont cha miss me like i do ? please tell me . sakit taw merindu nhe syg )'; searching you like crazy . keep on9 just to see if you're on9 . keep waiting your text message . there's no more my favourite ringtone bunyi . my phone so sunyi syg . keep on asking your friend if they know where you at . am so fucking worried syg . for a few days already . really miss you . badly . like seriously . i keep on trying . trying trying . bt cant contact you at ALL ! feels like am a crazy person already .

muncul lha kw syg . ak rindu nhe . ckupckup lha tedera nhe . please lha . sakit bha kw taw kha syg . cpatcpat lh on phone thu )';

truly love you ,

FE makin mendekati saya );

asalamualaikum ( ;

apa mcm kmuekmue ? ada baek kh ? huhu . nhe mlam sementara mc ada kesempatan , sya mw clean up sya pnya belog yg suda bersarang labahlabah serta habuk yg tabal garagara tidakk ditinjau stelah skian lama . ngehehe .

nowadays , tiada apa yg best . sumanyaa membosankan . study turut membosankan sy sudaa . malar jumpa numbur .trusstruss . mlar c formula seja diingat . x lama gila lh ini . hang utak oo !

my FE mw dtg suda . makin dekat suda . i mean FINAL EXAM . hehe . dear FE , please be nice with me ? can you ? huhu . sy tidakk confident lh tuk jwb FE nnt . btulbtul tidakk confident . sy takut tea bole score . sbb sya x dpat tngkp suma yg di belajar . tlmpaw di push . dimana lg assgmnt betimbun . mna sy pnya test & quiz tidak tinggi dea pnya markah . totally stress ! my only hope is FE . maw harapkan PB ? mimpi seja lh ! sy suda start study jua dgn subject hydro . bole jua tngkp , cumaa bila pengiraan yg complicated thu , mulaa lh sudaa utak jamm .

buat masa nhe , geotech bole lh tngkp cket . maths eng 3 ? ummm sesetgh bab seja . huhu . QM ? benda nhe yg buad sy pening x abesabes ! highway ? bole lh kot . tak suma bab dpt tngkp . hydro ? ummm bole laaaa ~

saya risau ! RISAU RISAU RISAU ! Ya Allah , harapharap hamba mue ini dpt jwab semua nnt dgn mudah serta hati terbuka dgn otak yg berfungsi dgn pantasnyaa . AMINN ~ saya stress . saya takut . saya nervous . saya sedih . saya waswas . saya kurang yakin . mcm mcm ada dirasaa .

actually , i need someone to talk with . really need a hug . right now . i just wanted to forget everything in my life just for a moment . frget bout assgmnt , frget bout the FE , frget bout boyfie , frget bout other peoples , frget bout this rude world . i just need time to be alone ); sometimes i felt like nobody needs me nymore .

cant stop blaming myself . i dont know why . i dont know what for .

souke ATIE ! you can do it ! jyeahh ! keep it up ! just do an execise and revision more kae ? you know how to do it , kw cuma tidakk yakin dgn jwapn kae ? no matter what , you clever bhaa (';

#memotivasi dirisendiri nhe . huhu

ALL THE BEST FOR MYSELF ! GOOD LUCK ! BELIEVE IN YOURSELF WAHAI NURUL IZZATI MOHD ZAINI !

' YA ALLAH , BUKA KN LAH PINTU HATI KAMI UNTUK TERIMA ILMU SERTA CERDASKAN LAH INGATAN KAMI UNTUK MENGINGATI ILMU ITU . AMIN'