yg pernah dicintai & yg ingin dicintai (;

Dear BokLaBoLan , 

lo amo. Todavía no puedo aceptar que estamos separados. Me acuerdo de todas sus promesas. Pero ¿cómo no lo suficientemente bueno para él. Yo hubiera querido. Esto puede ser por medio de la separación es la mejor manera para los dos. Estoy dispuesto a que él (';.. que feliz, yo hice lo mismo gracias por todo, Mohd Azlancualquier modo, Te quiero siempre.

with love ,
who is truly love you (';




Dear Mr. Nassy ,

Te amo. Desde luego aceptar la presencia de alma en mi mundo.perdóname si no puedo soportar perderte BokLaBoLan. Sé que estás herido. pero yo realmente te amo. Le doy las graciasseadanyaa. incluso cuando estaba con otras personas. pero ahora, no se preocupe, porque yo estaré contigo y te ama tan prontocomo sea posible. gracias amor (';


que te aman,
amar a tu corazón

we no any longer (';

salam . haha . i still remember this date . 12 APRIL 2012 . we brokeup ! haha . jyeaahh ! for a weeks he off his phone , not even reply my text ONCE , and tuptuptup minta break ! and i was like WATAPAK ? ! LIKE SERIOUSLY ? ! and i cried for one whole day , and after that am FREE like forever . i guess so ! haha ;D am tired with a MAN who never be so grateful with the women that really love him ! SO STUPID DAMN ASSHOLE btul lh . haha . GO DIE LH sma nama nyaa lelaki . cakap bukan bole pakai . mulut manis seja lebih ! and now , i dont trust them . and sy tidak terikat dgn mnamna lelaki dn tidak terima mnamna lelaki . sy cuma byk chat texting with lelaki . bukan mengetek oke . cuma kwankwan . sbb sy leby suka kwan dgn laky brbanding girls sbb drg open mind and sporting . slalu mndengar . perempuan nhe lain cket . kaki gossip thu mang x bole lari . haha

so , we both over our relationship . and stop ! no text , no call . but , sometimes i feel alone and really need him . and for godsake , imisshim <3 haha . gaahh ~ just for a moment lh .

he taught me how to be brave . jd yakin diri , jd lebih tabah , kuat . and ajar ak jd lebih EGO . sorry lh sang . kw yg ajar ak jd ego . dah lh chaw ! ;p

kesayangan ku menghilang )';

salam & good evening belog ku .

about three days already . he never called me . never text me . never care bout me . where was he ? i've been call and text him for a hundred times but it keeps on pending . why is he off his phone ? am so fucking miss him so much . where are you syg ? dont cha miss me like i do ? please tell me . sakit taw merindu nhe syg )'; searching you like crazy . keep on9 just to see if you're on9 . keep waiting your text message . there's no more my favourite ringtone bunyi . my phone so sunyi syg . keep on asking your friend if they know where you at . am so fucking worried syg . for a few days already . really miss you . badly . like seriously . i keep on trying . trying trying . bt cant contact you at ALL ! feels like am a crazy person already .

muncul lha kw syg . ak rindu nhe . ckupckup lha tedera nhe . please lha . sakit bha kw taw kha syg . cpatcpat lh on phone thu )';

truly love you ,

FE makin mendekati saya );

asalamualaikum ( ;

apa mcm kmuekmue ? ada baek kh ? huhu . nhe mlam sementara mc ada kesempatan , sya mw clean up sya pnya belog yg suda bersarang labahlabah serta habuk yg tabal garagara tidakk ditinjau stelah skian lama . ngehehe .

nowadays , tiada apa yg best . sumanyaa membosankan . study turut membosankan sy sudaa . malar jumpa numbur .trusstruss . mlar c formula seja diingat . x lama gila lh ini . hang utak oo !

my FE mw dtg suda . makin dekat suda . i mean FINAL EXAM . hehe . dear FE , please be nice with me ? can you ? huhu . sy tidakk confident lh tuk jwb FE nnt . btulbtul tidakk confident . sy takut tea bole score . sbb sya x dpat tngkp suma yg di belajar . tlmpaw di push . dimana lg assgmnt betimbun . mna sy pnya test & quiz tidak tinggi dea pnya markah . totally stress ! my only hope is FE . maw harapkan PB ? mimpi seja lh ! sy suda start study jua dgn subject hydro . bole jua tngkp , cumaa bila pengiraan yg complicated thu , mulaa lh sudaa utak jamm .

buat masa nhe , geotech bole lh tngkp cket . maths eng 3 ? ummm sesetgh bab seja . huhu . QM ? benda nhe yg buad sy pening x abesabes ! highway ? bole lh kot . tak suma bab dpt tngkp . hydro ? ummm bole laaaa ~

saya risau ! RISAU RISAU RISAU ! Ya Allah , harapharap hamba mue ini dpt jwab semua nnt dgn mudah serta hati terbuka dgn otak yg berfungsi dgn pantasnyaa . AMINN ~ saya stress . saya takut . saya nervous . saya sedih . saya waswas . saya kurang yakin . mcm mcm ada dirasaa .

actually , i need someone to talk with . really need a hug . right now . i just wanted to forget everything in my life just for a moment . frget bout assgmnt , frget bout the FE , frget bout boyfie , frget bout other peoples , frget bout this rude world . i just need time to be alone ); sometimes i felt like nobody needs me nymore .

cant stop blaming myself . i dont know why . i dont know what for .

souke ATIE ! you can do it ! jyeahh ! keep it up ! just do an execise and revision more kae ? you know how to do it , kw cuma tidakk yakin dgn jwapn kae ? no matter what , you clever bhaa (';

#memotivasi dirisendiri nhe . huhu

ALL THE BEST FOR MYSELF ! GOOD LUCK ! BELIEVE IN YOURSELF WAHAI NURUL IZZATI MOHD ZAINI !

' YA ALLAH , BUKA KN LAH PINTU HATI KAMI UNTUK TERIMA ILMU SERTA CERDASKAN LAH INGATAN KAMI UNTUK MENGINGATI ILMU ITU . AMIN'

semua terjadi x smpai sehari (;

salam sejahtera my belog ! suda bekurun agak lama yaa sy tidakk buka kw . hehe . now , sy mw meng update belog lh nhe (; sekarang sy lebih bahagia dari dlue . you know why belog khu ? meh cnhe ak cerr . panjang cerr nyaa taw . rujuk lh d bawahh .

<3 9th march 2011

saya and c bebeh gt into a fight . sy text dea and tell him am dying because missing him so damn much ! then , that night he called me . *besa lh pengguna digi . pree mlmmlm (; we talked like usual but suddenly he said to me that he gt another girl . seriously , ak mmg tegamam x bebunyii . truss nanges . i asked him , since when ? he told me since a few months lh . sy gilagila pnya sedy lh . nanges trusstruss . dea pujuk jua . dea bilang kita jn jd musuh lh kae ? sy kc lepas kmue duadua lh nhe mlm . sy akn contact kw jua stiap ary . dea bilang bgtu . so , sy pun try terima kputusan dgn hati terbuka . then we calling smpai pagi smbung time class . pelik nyaa dea lngsung tamao off call . asal mati dea call balik . bikin heran jua time thu . dalam hati bilang 'time couple x kw rajin call , skaly break rajin pula ' and then hari ku brlalu bgtu seja . tp 1 hari thu . bekalikali dea call . and kmi berjanji stusma laen , one week after we break up , kmi mok jlnjln spendtime smasma 1 hari . pastu , dea ckp 'AWAS KW LW SY NMPK KW JLN SMA LAKY LAEN ! SY INJAK THU KMUE DUA ! SERIUS !' sy pn bilang bgtu lh sbb namao kalaa juaa . haha XD

<3 10th march 2011

subuhsubuh dea da call . then ptg thu sya stayout dgn c twin & kak nana . sya stay sma drg sebab mw elang kn memory sma c bebeh . sakit gilaa bha hati khu time thu . merana jua lh . sya jlnjln sma drg d 1B sbb tkut c bebeh tenmpak sy bejalan sma laky *dea kn pling pntang nmpk sy jln sma laky ;p skaly time mw balek p hotel d apiapi , limpas 1 restoran nhe . bru sej kluar lif truss dea call . pucat skjap muka sya . huhu . then jwab call lh nhe , blum smpat bckp suda 1 solan dea tnya 'SAMA SEPA KW THU ?' aduii . jtuh jntung khu , purapura slumber jwab 'kawan . drg kak nana' then dea bilang 'KW TRUN SKRG!AK MW JMPA!' ya allah ! pnya taakuut ak time thu . buat slumber sha trun jmpa dea . then mcmmcm dea ckp , ak bilang sma c kak nana , x jua pcaya . LELAKI seja d nmpak nyaa . stagaa ~ lw perempuan sblah ak x dea nmpk . gilaa ! -.- ckp pnya ckp then dea mngaku , dea cuma test sy . test test tp sakit buduu kw buad sy bgtu ! huhu . then dea nanges pjuk sya , dea tpuu thu suma . sbb thu dea call ak slalu tkut jd apa apa . dea rsa serbaslah sbb bt ak bgtu ngamngam hari wanita sedunia . dea x tahan jeles thu bila nmpk ak sma laky laen . tmbhtmbh lg ada kwn dea report nmpk sy jln d 1B sma laky . *dea thu byk btul matamata !==' smpi dea suru sy blek smpelang pat ruma nenek , sgp dea antar . tp kak nana pujuk . jgn lh bwa sy blek teda kwn nyaa . lastlast . cair jua dea . haha <3 ak sygg lh dea ! 1 mlm thu dea x suru sy tidurr tkut sma laky laen . dea call trusstruss . bkalikali bilang i<3u , i miss u . terharu pulaa sy time thu . haha . jrgjrg d dgr dr mulut naa . haha .

btw , nhe pic drg kak nana n twins (;

kak nana & teha (;

adik , nana , abg (;

merekamereka (;

bahagia mimang bahagia (;

tp mula sudaa dea start minta sgala password fb n phone .

tp hubungan kami sudaa makin jd baek dr sebelum nhe (';

salam belog khu


hehe . rasa mcm dah lama tak buka belog nhe . padahal baru dua hari . rasa mcm dah bersarang labahlabah nhe .

and ak x taw knapa ayat di atas bole terunderline dgn sendri nyaa serta berwarna biru . pelik jua ak sendry tdy apa apa pun bear lha . huhu . belog ak nhe mmg dah mcm mcm penyakit nyaa sejak duamnejak nhe ak cibuk dengan FB , twittah , Tumblah , Formspring lha , smpai tak inagt maw update belog nhe . nduu . kesian belog khu nhe . terbear dek tuan sndry souke belog khu . skarang nhe daku meluangkan msa dgn mue hehe . okeoke . ikut cer semalam . bebeh khu ada call . tp takda salam takda apa terusterus terjah ak . dea ckap dea ada dgr story sal ak lg adeii . apaa lg nhe ? x abesabes fitnah trustruss org zaman skarang nhe huhh am sick of this ! takda kha manusia yg x dengki dgn org laen ? garagara hal thu dea x call ak satu malam adeii . ak tunggu punya tunggu mcm bekurun lama , takkk jua d call lastlast ak give up ak sent text dkt dea then tdoo . msa thu dah kul 6 stngah pagi . lastlast dea call gak , around 8 gthu . suddenly call betaw sal jadual keja dea then bawa kawen . aik ? apa ke mimipi mamat nhe . dlue dea bilang 'awal bhaa ~' skaly tetba maw kawen . tekejut badak lha ak ! bgus lw btulbtul . huhu . dlm pg nhe jak , dea call 3 4 kaly , selang sejam dea call balek . ak yg tgh sodap tidoo pn terganggu hendaknyaa tetba rajin bg plying kiss ak sgt heran . sgtsgt heran . mesra alamnyaa mcm laen adeii . tp bear lha . jarang taw ak d sayang bgnhe hehe . slalu nyaa dea jak ak sayang lembut sgt dea bcakap ary nhe . hehe . ak sukaa ~ ! dont worry sayang . iloveyou so much bhaa ndada jua org laen nhe kae ? kawen jua kitaa nnt hehe . aminn ~ sayang chenta saya nhe c azlan . muamuah bha d lendo naa ~ now dea keja , hatihati d sana kae syg ?

sincerely ,

bahagea sejaa ~

bini si AZLAN aka LALAN @BOBOK :)

salam semua nyaa . hehe . hari nhe saya saket damam dek terkena ujan kemarin slepas berjalanjalan dengan bebeh yg tersayang . huhu . sakit kapla yg tlampaw adeii . bangun tadi pun agak lambat . x tahan sgt saket nyaa mcm bole bg matii . huhu . tp kemarin agak best gak lha . hehe . mna x best nyaa . jln sma bebeh kn . hehe tp kemarin naseb x d maraa ole dea pa x nyaa , tenga syoksyok jalan sma c bebeh tetiba lha pula ada mamat bengap nhe call . adei i . sgt wrong timing ouke ! dah lha dea thu kuat jeles dan panas baran grr ~ bikin geram tauk ! tapi bahagea juga lha yg d rasa . sudaa lama x jumpa dea . hehe . at last , dating jua kmi kemarin . ngee ~ and sya malu betul bila dea mkan msakan sya . adeii . takut nda sadap bha thu lha *dea yg suru masak . huhu . tapi , abes juga dea makan . licin hehe . best sgt tingu dea mkan sntiasa berselera . hehe . ak pun ikut kenyang bila tingu dea mkan hehe .

ouke . berbalek kpd cheta asal . ary nhe . saket saket cmna pun ak tetap buang tebiat aktiviti bergambalgambal tetap dijalankan hehe . di bawah nhe lha hasil yg ak dapat . hehe .

hehe . ada muka saket tak ? :)

gambal dilisendili . hehe :)